What is “it”? This is a pretty deep topic, but how can you live without thinking about “it”.
I think if you really want to tap into your power you need admit there are things out there you can’t explain. But that doesn’t mean they don’t exist.
I like to ponder on a fable of a devout Christian that was killed during hurricane Katrina. He had chances….to survive….to live.
The fable goes something like this…
Two weeks before Katrina, the weatherman forecast “the hurricane was entering the Gulf of Mexico, and could be huge. Better get ready”. The man said, “I’ll be ok, the Lord & Jesus are looking out for me, they’ll save me”.
A week before Katrina, the National Hurricane center had started tracking and modeling a path for Katrina and sent out more warnings. The man said, “I’ll be ok, the Lord & Jesus are looking out for me, they’ll save me”.
Then, the TV news reported where Katrina would hit, and police were advising evacuation. The man said, “I’ll be ok, the Lord & Jesus are looking out for me, they’ll save me”.
Then it hit, the fire and rescue were sent around to collect anyone left. He refused help. The man said, “I’ll be ok, the Lord & Jesus are looking out for me, they’ll save me”.
Then, the flood waters came. From his roof, the National Guard came to his rescue, and he refused help. The man said, “I’ll be ok, the Lord & Jesus are looking out for me, they’ll save me”.
Well, the floods swept him away and he was killed. He awoke and found himself at the “pearly gates”.
When he met Jesus; he asked, “what happened? I thought you would protect me”.
Jesus said, “what do you call the weathermen, National Hurricane Center, police, firemen, and National Guard?”.
What if this cancer journey is the same for me? Just a more desperate warning to get “it” together?
As I lived without consequence, I’ve been given opportunities to save myself. Addicted to nicotine, binge drinking, not a good diet, not very much exercise, and not a very good husband, friend or father really. Just thought if I worked hard at work, the rest would all sort itself out. I was right…”it” has sorted itself all out.
Mark, you have Glaucoma (2005)
Mark, you have an Acoustic Neuroma (2006)
Mark, you have Carcinoid with Liver Metasis (2007)
Mark, your tumors are inoperable (2011)
Mark, you have diabetes (2012)
Mark, they are growing again with some bone lesions (2015)
What have I been sent?
One of the best eye surgeons in the world, a brain surgeon and gamma knife surgery for the Acoustic Neuroma, a surgeon who had the balls to take on my liver surgery, the same surgeon who invented “microwave on a stick” to zap some liver tumors while repairing a large hernia, an oncologist who was had the wisdom of NET cancer to refer me to a specialist team, a Univ of Iowa NET specialist who introduced me to the “wizzard” and his team at the Royal Free in London for PRRT Y-90 & Lu-177. Not to forget, the nurses and Dr’s who manage my lanreotide treatments, diabetes, and general health. And, my friends, family and wonderful wife!
I don’t know if it is a god or the universe or my own spirit, but I do know I am a lucky boy.
I feel enlightened enough to recognize help, and to embrace it. To recognize where I am, and what I need to do. Because, I’m running out of available treatments.
If I want to beat this cancer, I need to make it until a cure is invented. To do that, I need to get my body and mind in their best possible shape to keep the cancer at bay long enough for the cure. And, to “visualize” it all happening.
I am seeing the signs…just a couple weeks ago, the major carcinoid group in the USA “Caring for Carcinoid” sent $100K to the team I see at the Royal Free to look into “immunetherapy”. Coincidence? I think not!
I’ve also been exposed to some great blogs, books, videos, and even a Silva “mind control” seminar.
I still don’t know if it is the universe or a god or both, but does it matter? I do know there are things out there that are pretty powerful! I’m a lucky boy to “get it” to that point!